Monday, December 11, 2006

statement of faith

so vce result is out today.some are happy some are sad...some did good andsome did bad...oh!! it rhymed k k lets try to make a poem for this...

Some are happy some are sad,
some did good and some did bad,
no matter what the results do be glad,
that ur friends still love u and thats that!

lol..k it sounded nice..=)
so anyway yea vce results are out....what can i inspired to study now! hahahah
i will set my aims that i can achieve...reasonable aims .....which is....not to get 99.95 but juz get Dux...ahha
i believe it is possible if i really want it and work for it...hmmm in case some of u dunno wat dux is., means ur the top student in the school....and for my school u probably need 99.95 to get dux i think....but thats not wat i want..i juz want dux...=p okok back to reality...wait..i am in gonna work hard next yr....not to challenge any other person...but to set a standard

wat i plan to do is to juggle 3 things next year
2)church services and meetings
3) ministries

i believe that with obedience and faithfulness to God ...exam results will be better.
there are so many contributing factors to a good exam result...of course hard work is one of them but wat about peace of mind during exam?stress?health?unexpected things can happen anytime and anywhere...i have taken 3 major exams and if it was not God who gave me the results i dunno who did.

when faith is spending more time with God, it is not a waste of study time, but instead it works the opposite as it helps ur study time.You realise u have moretime to study when u spend more time with God.

So to those sceptics who think coming to church juz waste study gonna prove u guys gonna show why God comes1st in the priority list.

Sunday, December 10, 2006


something inside wanna break free......but its being contained...contained as if it was locked in the cupboard for a long time and now its woken up...banging vigorously on the cupboard door wanting to come out.The only thing thats holding it back is the lock.But i dont have the key.I wish i knew wat the key was.i wish i know what is inside the cupboard.I wish i can cry .....but if only i know why ...if only i know what is inside?what is this in me? why is it being contained?i wanna let it go...but the key is missing...i want to do this but something is holding me back.....what is this?tell me!

it clouds my mind, my very thoughts.....disillusioned by the gust of the wind....deprived from my own this wat its all about?i thought i knew i thought i had it...i thought i thought i thought! everything is blur now....what lies ahead ,only time can tell..i can never see my steps ahead....i saw a glimpse of the future that God has forme...but im not sure no where near what has been promised.did i hear and see it correctly?or was it juz a spur of a moment to have such a vision displayed before my very eyes?or was it juz a dream?juz another ...another dream?

I am juz someone stuck in a ptch black room.not knowing what is ahead of me.everything around me seems to be void.i cant even see my ownself....but because You oh God are a lamp unto my feet....because of that i can see the next step im taking.I may notknow what lies ahead of me now but im glad u are there to help me see the next step.Where do i go from here? guide me Lord me ..i pray...

Saturday, December 09, 2006


lol...i found time to blog..ok an update on myself. im working from 7am to 5pm.the workingplace is like 1.5 hours drive with heavy traffic.I travel thru and fro at peak hours so its like 3 hours drive everyday....but with the money..its all good.hahah so my work finish on the 15th which is this coming friday. but then i got an interview for mcdonalds on the 20th. the thing is i dunno if i wanna work...cuz i might wanna study for next yr.hmmm but then if i get the job i get money... so i guess i'll juz go for the interview....whether i get the job or happy....

ok so if u seldom see me online...heres why i get back home at 6ish and lie on my thing i know it would be 9 or 10pm so i'll juz take my dinner and wash up cuz i have to wake up at 5.30am for if u do see me online...lucky you...ahahah

ok so somehow i managed to find time to watch "the click" today and its a good movie.i guess adam sandler is juz a good actor.....and the storyline wasnt it was good and funny...

other than that planning last minute hang outs are juzfunny how it works out...=) would be hangin out more often....=) till then gotta get rest nw...cyz

Monday, December 04, 2006

there will come a time

there will come a time...there will come a time.
when suddenly he/she does not act or perform to your expectation.when suddenly words being thrown out seem impossible to be taken back.when the war heats up for no appearant reason.Every person has their own phase of life.Everyone changes from time to time.I guess no one is comfortable with changes.Everyone expects everything to be the same yesterday today and till death do us part.But changes happen so frequently....people mature...gain intelligence...sometimes to the point of surpassing your own knowledge and understanding. You realise your time has passed and a new generation is taking over...but howwell do we deal with changes? how hard is it for a mind to be versatile enough to understand the changes that happen around us? Once upon a time people said we could never fly....those were the days when changes seem so irralevent. but as generations passed people are beginning to accept changes more and more takes time..i does...

what is it like to see someone now different than what he/she used to be?will u still accept he/she despite them not being what you think they should be like?despite them not behaving what u want them to behave.or is it more important just to accept them?what is it like to deal with a change?

what is it like for a person to tell his parents its time to leave the house and stay someplace else.What is it like for a child to grow up and get married?what is it like to be secured in your own home where everything is provided and suddenly be out in the world looking after yourself?what is it like to hate and yet love someone at the same time? is it hard to cope up?is it that difficult?i would never know.

somethings are just meant to be.All this will happen one day.there will come a time....there will come a time.....

Thursday, November 30, 2006


i know i know...its been awhile since i blogged. who knows holidays can be so taxing?lol

So i got this job...which only last for awhile till my task is over...get bout 13 per hour ...i work 8 u do the maths aite...haha i take up 3 hours of my time each day driving....and yea...

so i am still continuously applying for other jobs.hopefully do a few jobs at once...I wanna do jobs which requires lots of thinking but hey most of them require certs and stuff...hahaha hey u noe wat ...i came across this quote which is me at least...haha

Copying one person's ideas is called plagiarism, copying many people's ideas is called research!

Monday, November 20, 2006

Test result

so i did the colesmyers test and guess what...appearently my answers were juz too good for the computer to process it....hahhahahaha im talking about the work safety part...yea thats right i'll quote them

"On this occasion from your response patterns we were unable to ensure the accuracy of your resulting work safety score and its appropriate interpretation. For this reason we are unable to provide you with a valid score for this assessment."

hahah its juz wierd.....if anybody ever encountered this let me cuz so far noone ever got this! zzzzz

in summary..

1)Cognitive Ability test = 97%
2)Work preference profile =go to the link below and see
3)Work safety = unable to process result.(LOL!)


Sunday, November 19, 2006

an influence

What makes a person a person?What is it that defines who we are?is it our actions?what we do? or is it juz who we are?Remember those times when we were lil kids...we use to juz make friends with whoever we know?they dont have status or whatsoever...yet we juz willingly play with them.We made friends with almost every kid we meet....though we may not have been fluent in english....we did enough by juz asking .."can u be my friend?"....and whenever lil kids have a fight...they always end up sayin "i don wanna friend you".....wasnt it just cute during those days of our lives? when no status,no barriers could hold us back from accepting people as just who they are.... just as who they are...

What about now>?why is it that when we get older....we resort into choosing our own friends instead?we devide people up into different groups....the nerds hang out together....the sports guys hang out at one corner and the :cool" ones at another corner...What about those days when there was no seperation between people?what about those days when we could just accept one another as just who they are?When lil kids fight....they fight today and tomorrow they forget and just be friends again.I remember having bloody fights when i was young....yea literally bloody but hey we still be friendsagain the next day and then later fight again...then friends again....haha come to think of it...i reckon its unique...hahah

So where does this all division among people come from? Parents!Adults! yeap....werent they the ones who told u to "choose your friends wisely" "dont mix with the wrong group of people" and the bible too.,..when it says in proverbs "he who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm" So why are parents so concern about our friends? it is because they have seen over the years how mixing with the wrong group juz destroys every potential in you.and its true.someone once said "show me your friends, and i can tell you your future"..a very true statement to the core if u think about it.most of us are who we are today because of the friends around us. you see an emo...and u know what friends he has been hanging out with....u see a gangster and u know the friends he hanged out with....anything or everything u see is dependable or consequential of our actions.

So where am i getting at?The simple reason why friends either destroy or build u up simply depend on your level of influence.if u join a group and see how different u have become compared to before u join...then u would know if they had build u up or tear u down...but if u were to take another step further ....instead of bein influenced by them....and be a stronger influence...then that is what i call a breaktrough. david wilkison went to the gangsters to reach out to them...he had a greater influence..far beyond the gangsters influence....

what happens if you put salt into an orange juice?the orange juice becomes now..think about it....why did the orange juice become salty? WHy diddnt the sweetness of the orange overcome the saltiness?even though there was a lesser amount of salt...the juice still became salty.A simple conclusion would be that the salt is more influential that the sweetness in the orange juice. So no matter how big your group of friends your way up to become the influence itself!

just an interesting note: look at your own group of friends and see if u can find the one who has been the greatest influence all this can be :
1) when he/she makes a decision the majority agrees
2) he/she would stand up for u guys if there was any problem

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Resume writing

Its been a cold cold think that some parts of melbourne were 0 celcius just made me thank GOd that my place was only 8celcius...hmmm winter started early and now its ending late good think my blanket is duck feathers....its the warmest thing there is i think...hahah

haha i found myself looking at a dull 2 month holiday coming up.I decided to look for a job...ended up having to do my resume.I find resume writting very interesting.Here you are promoting yourself as if you are an item on display.You are now to tell the people why you are better than the rest of the applicants.So in a way, you need a big ego and be confident of yourself.hahah I thought about it so i decided to write down all my awards and certificates down.You know what i ended up doing? filling up 2 pages...hahaha so i decided to cut down my awards and certificates to half of what i have choosing significant ones... and here is what i laid down..

Awards and certificates

• Distinction in Australian Mathematics Competition 2006
• Distinction in International Competitions for schools(Mathematics) 2004
• Credit in International Competitions for schools(English) 2004
• Credit in International Competitions for schools(Science) 2004
• Represented school in Mathematics and Science 2005
• Certificate of Excellent Result in English 2005
• Certificate of Excellent Result in Lower Secondary Examination 2003

• 1st in street soccer competition 2004 (intraschool)
• 1st in street soccer competition 2005 (intraschool)
• 1st in soccer competition 2004 (intraschool)
• 3rd in soccer competition 2000 (intraschool)
• Participated in soccer tournament 2006
• Represented school in Basketball 2005
• 9th in zonal competition for chess 2000
• 10th in district competition for chess 2004
• 7th in district competition for chess 2005
• Best player in Convent Chess tournament 2003
• Best player in Johor Chess festival 2005
• 3rd in Sultan Ibrahim chess open (team event)
• 4th in Johor Chess Festival ( team event)
• Participated in the EC run (6 km) 2002 ,2003, 2004 ,2005

• Head of organizing committee 2002 (prefect board)
• President of chess club 2005
• Lance Corporal in Saint John Ambulance Malaysia
• First Aid Certificate

haha so i was just contented with this half and i thought to myself that this should be enough to impress employers.NOw i just got to find me some refrees.....hmm who wants to be my referee?haha im guessing that the people reading this blog are in no position to be a

hmm so are we defined by who we are or are we defined by what we do? I'll leave it to you to think about it.If you have any interesting comments on this let me know via e-mail or msn or the tag box on the bottom right hand corner of this blog. Thank you!

Monday, November 13, 2006


Suddenly an outburst of people reading or rather visiting this blog...hmmm
its has been a great week and hey tomorrow is my last day of exams...and i wonder what i will do after that...hmm anybody wanna hang out? call! i can drive..woot.... hahah so hey if ur wondering how was exam? its only yr 11 exams so the results don matter much.... i guess that says how my exam was....hahahha

ok enuf about exams.... my week in general was good. aileen and niki were somehow inspired by some supernatural force to take up guitaring.... and to top that up aileen cut only 3 of her nails...leaving the pinky and the thumb with long sticking nails....for some reason.....hmmm self defence?haha

but this holidays...with the time i have....i'll try to turn pro with my guitar...tho i forgot a whole lot of it...cant read notes now...grrr...only can read chords and other way of noting the fingerings,....hmmmm so i have a mission but yea dont noe if i will keep up with it...ahhahah

still i cant stay home playin guitar 24/7 ...hmmm ...still need to go di da di da....
anyway here is the quote of the day....and something u can spend the next 60 seconds pondering about it..


Friday, November 10, 2006


Dance has been taking this world by storm....its no surprise considering how useful dance is in many areas of life.Some say it is a way of life...well i agree to a certain extend...
I just finished watching another ballroom was on foxtell and i had yea..nothing better to do..haha i found a few quotes from the movie quite interesting
"dance is like a drug...."
" dance is used to summon entertain and to some it paints the colours in their lives that they never knew existed"

come to think of can be expressed in all sorts of can intimidate people...builds up ones confidence....have a clear mind....lots of stuff...I know some dances u will just get lost in it for hours...and some u juz dance to forget all the hurts around some dances like break builds up confidence of ur ownself....

olden days dance was more like a ritual done for spiritual tribal it becomes more of an entertainment....Dance is also capable of motivating as much as a song does.....To find such a unique expression of life so usefull in life ...its never surprising to see how dance is spreading world wide now... Simple as the word can be...its nature itself is complicated to its core.Now juz dance like uve never dance and move like uve never move......

Inconsistent language

English...a language so inconsistent and yet used on a worldwide scale.If you were wondering what was the fuss about "ghoti" and "fish" ...well today is your day become less dense in just 5 minutes..haha ok 1st of all "ghoti" is pronounced as "fish".This is away of proving the inconsistency of the english language.let me explain how this works ..
"enough" - notice how "gh " in this word is pronounced with an "f" sound..
"women" - now the"o" in the word is pronounced as "ee"
"nation" - now the "ti" in this word is pronounced as "sh"
so now you get the hang of it? u combine all of it and u get "feesh" which is also "fish" and not forgetting "ghoti"! ahahah

There are seemingly endless debates over which is the longest word in English, demonstrating that the idea of what constitutes a word is not as straightforward as it seems. English allows new words to be formed by construction; long words are frequently coined; place names may be considered words; technical terms may be very long. It is difficult to know where to draw the line.

The longest word in any major English language dictionary is pneumo­noultra­microscopic­silico­volcano­coniosis, a 45-letter word supposed to refer to a lung disease, but research has discovered that this word was originally intended as a hoax. It has since been used in a close approximation of its originally intended context, lending at least some degree of validity to its claim.

I heard on a radio programme once about someone asking anyone to just write in morewords to be added into the dictionary.This is because there are still some expressions or situations that english itself is unable to describe fully.So with new words being added so often,who knows what new words there are each day?Simply make one word up and send to websters haha im sure malaysians have many of their own words made up with very interesting meanings. hahah

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Time machine

So by now most of you who know me well enough would know that i have an extraordinary piece of memory.A brain capable of remembering events long time ago in detail.Such has been much of a help in recollecting and reliving memories through pieces of writings.given time, i can tell you in detail how the 1st timei met u was like.hmmm .... because of such abililities i could remember stuffs that would pull me thru my hardest struggles and also stuff that could bring me down to an endless pit. Yes, life has its ups and downs....and allof it i have in mind a precise timeline of the events...
FOrgive and forget was never my motto...nor could i even carry it out....yes,...i can forgive...but to forget....its is as if u r asking a bird not to fly when it was meant to right from birth.... it has its pros and cons....on one hand you learn from the lessons of life....not during those moments but instead in hindsight of it, u learn even more.....18 and a half years has been a short period of time but if you could relive each event and learn different lessons from it ....its worth a thousand years of experience.....On the other hand....what good does it do to remember my darkest part of my past, the part i could not seperate even if i wanted to.
Ever pondered what you would do if you had a time machine?To be honest i have, and i bet many of you did too.I could do so many things with a time machine.....rewind back time and i can undo the mistakes i did, eliminate the humiliation ...and live a perfect life....even einstein, a great scientist was looking into the possibility of it....making time relative to actions.....stephen hawkins is no different.But what is it that we can do in the past to make things better?Nothing. WE are who we are today because of what happened in the past. Maturing far beyond a simple 18 year old, i see life from a different angle.An angle only few have seen...Nothing i can do to change the past...and even if there was such a process of entering the past, i will not alter one bit of it.Because i know that God brings out the good out of evil....He brings joy out of sadness....He brings peace out of chaos.Everything that happened was to make me who i am today.
Easy to say but sometimes we hope for the impossible,believing the unrealistic just in order to fulfill our own selfish desires...Everyone wants to do everything right...but we forget that we cant. We all want to be recognised by people......but you will reach a point when u want less publicity and more time for yourself.It just goes round in a circle...Nothing seems to end...but let it start today, remove the scales of depression from your eyes....because

Sunday, November 05, 2006


AS we are nearing the 1000th mark of people visiting this blog....(stats excluding my own visitation)
I would juz like to share a few statistics...

This blog is
1)viewed by people from
-United Kingdom

2)Most popular archive = july 2006
MOst popular post = mr.bean & swearing (both with the same number of hits)
Top referer =

Internet explorer = 52.3%
Mozilla Firefox = 47.1 %
Netscape = 0.3%
Opera = 0.1%

4)Operating system
windows xp = 97.3%
windows 2000 = 2.1%

5) How people found this site
- google search engine
-yahoo search engine

6)Average visitors perday
August = 12
September = 8
October = 8
November =10

So 1000 visitors in 3month plus......thank u all for your support... =)

Saturday, November 04, 2006

for such a time as this

Have u ever wanted a perfect world?a world where we could live in peace and harmony?when kids can be trusted to play freely in parks without supervision....where people will be understanding..helpful.....a world where everything is seemingly perfect...?

Do you not know that we possess such power in us ...a power enough to liberate this world from its pains. do you not know how much energy each of us have?can u imagine if we could harness this energy together....what impact it could have?all it takes is unity and oneness.....look in few years time...there will be no more poverty all because one man went all out to fullfill that mission....
if that is what one man can do....than what more if all of us unite?The only reason why we can never achieve something great is because of distractions.....what are the distractions?u tell me....

Its a wonder how distractions can seem so big at that point of time and seem so pointless the next moment.the earlier u start to identify the distractions...the wiser you are...have u ever wondered why u should be born in the first place?why not just be nothing....never existing?why should u ever exist?isnt it juz a waste of time to live and then just die one day?well the truth is...there was a devine purpose for your birth..your growth....the way you were brought up....for SUCH A TIME AS THIS! THIS IS YOUR TIME TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE! the earth is calling out in its pains......Accomplish what you were created for!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

CHildhood cartoons

ok..let me take you for a walk down memory lane.We see a small lil kiddo sitting infront of a television.Television with antennas sticking out of it.The channels were on the television set so each time you want to change a gotta run up to the tv set and press the button!hehe no such thing as a remote there i was riding in the house on my red tricycle...zooming here and there...wearing my sunglasses and I also had ribbons coming out of the tricycle handles.There was a basket behind the tricycle which i put my favourite toys in it.=) Then came my favourite programme...i would zoom in my lil red tricycle all the way to the television set..."Sean dont seat too near to the television set.." came a voice from the kitchen... "yes mummy....." i replied. "turn the volume down..your baby brother is sleeping....(in his cradle)." she said again....."yes mummy.." was my reply...
The excitement of being able to watch my favourite cartoons just took my mind off everything.All i cared now was my cartoons.....I would bring my toys and play it in front of the it during the commercials....

With youtube being so efficient...i manage to find my long lost cartoons....

1st of all....transformers!!!

2ndly captain planet!!!!

love the theme song.....could see me as a lil kid singing...."captain planet...he's the hero......"

although cartoons were not that well drawn and done up as 3d and all.....but still i reckon they were still the best cartoons.....i can name a whole lot more...sesame street..gummy bears....chip&dales..darkwing duck...hahah i can see some of you nodding your heads...yeap! the list goes on and on....

Monday, October 30, 2006

Folding shirts

Here are 2 ways u can fold a shirt easily.....for all u lazy people...hahaha

2 new web browsers

wow....firefox 2 is out...juz 4 days ago.....also just after internet explorer 7 is out....i downloaded both and man...both are equally awesome...internet explorer improved alot with their security....for the next few days im switching to internet explorer to see how good it is...firefox is equally awesome....but yea i juz realised how different they were when i visited my blog on both browsers...

Firefox = no music
Internet explorer = cant use tagboard and doesnt show my profile...

will be fixing it soon anyway both ie7 and firefox2 have the same options...both have tab browsing...add-ons...bla bla bla

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Jesus freak

Listen to the words....
and enjoy...

Tuesday, October 24, 2006


The legendary mr.bean(the 2 top videos i found)

Fatal beatings

Dating tips

Another day.... i would say it was not a normal day nor was it a special day.Year 12's are gone....we got more courts to play durin lunch....the school seems quieter..and teachers are more could almost sense a sigh of relief coming from them.

SO today i woke up with my radio alarm going "...A mother was upset having breastfeed the wrong baby after the midwife had put the wrong newborn baby in her arms.The hospital expresses its regrets......" Lol....ok so i had an unusual news to wake me up.......which was hilarious coming to think of it..hahaha wonder if the hospital will get sued for it.haha

Everything went about as usual except for the scorching heat....31 degrees.I admit i slept twice in school just cant help it with the heat so strong and the environment just makes you sleepy.......i prefer winter than summer....and its not even summer yet!omg....the funny thing is houses here dont have fans or air conditioners.....hahah i can see why u dont need them...but today was hot! and guess what aussies say..."what a beautiful day hey"

Oh yea...and yes i did cut my own hair!ent to priceattack to get a pair of thinning scissors.I cant see how it looks from the back...but from the front...its oright.....hahah my hair is black again after trimming off the blonde.....except for my fringe with some blonde left...

Monday, October 23, 2006

Dont be a fool!

It perplexes the very thoughts of human's inteligence.Creating a world of no more than a reign of pure evil.With people delusionised by the moral standards that humans have try to set, it is no wonder that a world where chaos and evil reign supreme.Is it even possible for a human to say what is good and what is bad?is it possible for one to know what is evil and what is pure without anyone telling them in the first place? The rational mind of one speaks forth the rational mind of God.For it takes one to set a standard and others to follow.Different people have different ideas.DIfferent people have different principles. But one cannot derive it by just FEELING that it is good or bad but must be able to KNOW what is good or bad.

THe very fact of the existence of God , the one who devided the calendar in two(B.C. and A.D.), the reference point of everyone's existence,and the very fact there is something worth of living had set apart rules which were used throughout history by countries that are newly build, organisations and not forgetting the churches.But why has the marginal line between good and evil non-existent in our society? the very margin of good and evil is the bible itself.FOr wiith it and through it there is no justification for evil.Thus i have found the very sin that is amogst the younger generation today.THese problems were never done or even thought of by the older generations.

1) gay relationships. How could such an era be supportive of gays or even the existance of gay churches.The very fact sodom and gemorah was destroyed by God was because of Gay relationships.The very fact Leveticus 18:22 states that there should be no gay relationships states its importance and significance for itself.I dont see any point of such relationships and i dont see how a church for gays can even be started.Yes, we should accept all kinds of people to the kingdom of God...BUT TURN FROM THEIR WICKED WAYS! NOT IMPOSING AN "OK" to others!turn! repent! how blind can one be?is not the blindfold of evil worst than the blindfold of darkness?In darkness noone can see your foolishness but having the blindfold of evil just lets others see how foolish they are! A misrepresentation of GOd is simply a blesphemy!

2)Cutting oneself. I have asked people who cut themselves this question. "WHY!?!?!" enjoying the pain an excitement of cutting the hand?Like it was said, the blindfold of evil exposes their foolishness to those whose eyes are opened.Many , in fact all said it felt good to do it.This goes as well for tattoos. does it make one look tough?or sexy? or even cool?how delusionised can you be? Realise that the coolest people or toughest people on earth or in your minds right now do not have is juz something or someone playing with your thoughts telling you what it isnt in reality...its about time...wake up! Leviticus 19:28 says do not cut your bodies or put tattoo marks on yourself.

Conclusion = dont make a fool of yourself!

Friday, October 20, 2006


the mental state of which i cannot go on further.perplexed by the pressure and stress.No, my brain cannot take it.I need rest, a place of peace and relaxation,a place of solitary joy.In the darkness, the wind brushes my face...overwhelming me with the multitudes of stars twinkling in another time and space.Yes, the beauty of creation was sufficient.sufficient to undermine the stress of the world, to spectate the wonderous marvelous piece of art....To breathe in the chill of the air right into my lungs...the restoration nature holds within itself...
yes rest...away from the world...away from sapiens who are destroying the earth by the hour..bombs...chaos..pollution...still a place such as this exist in the midst of all these.Let not anyone annihilate the treasure nature holds...the energy it posses ...the very calmness it bringth...
through the creativity and brilliance of an omnipotent omnipresent and omnicience God, i find peace and restoration.....

Monday, October 09, 2006


Sometimes i wish and wish,
for an eternal bliss,
where i can live in peace,
with joy that never cease,

I wish and wish again,
for a land without any pain,
where the pastures are green,
and enemies unseen.

If only i could be innocent again,
a little child not knowing pain,
a cradle to rock me by,
and not forgetting a lulluby,

look around and see the world,
a place where war and chaos exist,
and why did that poor little girl,
had to die because of disease?

then why do i long for a place,
a place of perfection and love,
when i know its never real,
finding it im nowhere near.

Why do i cry in pain,
in what way do i gain?
is it not the same old cycle,
where joy and happiness seems unreal.

everything i go through each day,
seems meaningless needless to say,
my reputation my credibility that i build,
will one day be meaningless with guilt,

God help me oh God hear me,
If you are there please answer me,
streghthen me and empower me,
to fulfill your will and be done with this body.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Christians that cant go to heaven?

I dare say that not everyone of us reading this post will enter the kingdom of God.NOt only non-christians but also some christians reading this will not enter the kingdom of God.Scary isnt it?

Jesus said

Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' 23Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'

What is more scary is that Jesus said even if you were to prophesy or cast out demons or even perform miracles in Jesus would still not fact Jesus would say "I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!". This somehow struck me hard....evil doers? but what did they do to be called that?They even acknowledged that Jesus was lord of their life...because they called Jesus "lord, lord".

BUt the fact is Jesus rebuked them and said that they did not do the father's will.Then i began to ponder isnt healing the sick, casting out demons and all those stuff the father's will?doesnt He want us to help people?It took my trail of thoughts further and further until i started to realise that sometimes we work so hard for God but we missed the point. We missed the point, forgetting the reason why we started serving God in the first place.And its scary because once we forget it, Jesus says "away from me you evil doesrs!"

It is because it is no more of us doing it by God's strength but by our own strength,No more it is our own conviction but for other people's recognition.Jesus clearly said whatever that is done in secret, treasures will be stored in heaven but whatever that is done in public...they have already received what they deserved.

So realising what JEsus said really struck me.That means accepting Jesus as lord and saviour is not enough.Instead we need to prove that we mean it in our heart by our actions.And actions should be reflecting God's glory and also doing the father's will.Note that Jesus life on earth was only for one purpose and one purpose only, to do the Father's will!

As christians,we should be immitators of christ.And do the father's will.Not to be in so many ministries just for the fun of it but know what you are suppose to do on earth.How do we know what to do?Pray! prayer is like a lamp.You may not be sure what is ahead but it leads u each step of the way.What lies far ahead may still be blur and dark, but the lamp helps you to make the next step...and the next step...and the next step...

Monday, October 02, 2006


i have so much to write, being absent for one week. its all penned down but i guess i would have to halt all those post for this special one.

The first time i came down to melbourne i could remember going out to a malaysian shop for food. I remember chatting with pas. Teoh and one thing he told me was to guard my heart at all times.He told me that there are many influences here but I should guard myheart at mind at all times at all cost.

Then i remember going out fishing...which is the first time i ever fished.and how we laugh about wherever pas. teoh is the fishes run away....hahah..i also recall instances when i would greet him in church and to see that ever ceasing smile....

All i can say is he has finished his race.He has fulfilled his will here on earth.His life was nothing short of a sucess.The family itself shows forth how sucessfull in his life as a father he was.Having all the children serving God is something everyone struggle with but he led with example.Through servanthood, he leads.....

Everyone thinks it wasnt time yet but time wasnt in our hands since the beginning of life.No one can control time...only God.Only he was able to stop the sun from going down while the isrealites were fighting.God's ways are higher than our ways.The most important thing in life then is not worrying about when would we leave this earth but rather "are we ready to meet God?".

A life worth reflecting on....a life reflecting Christ...
May you rest in peace

Monday, September 25, 2006


ahha what do you know another interesting stuff i found in my archive....
guys and girls...if your parents ask you why you are not studying...hmmm i got this excuse that you might like to print it out..ahahah

Typical academic year for a student:

1. Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year, you know
Sundays are for rest.
Days left 313.
2. Summer holidays - 50 where weather is very hot
and difficult to study.
Days left 263.

3. 8 hours daily sleep - 130 days GONE.
Days left 141.

4. 1 hour for daily playing- (good for health)
means 15 days.
Days left 126.

5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies
(chewing properly & swallowing) -
means 30days.
Days left 96.

6. 1 hour for talking
(human is a social animal) - means 15 days.
Days left 81.

7. Exam days - per year at least 35 days.
Days left 46.

8. Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays) - 40
Days left 6.

9. For sickness - at least 3 days.
Days left 3.

10. Movies and functions- at least 2 days.
1 day left.

11. That 1 day is your birthday.

How can you study on that day?!?!?!?!?!?!
Balance =0

See what i mean!

Saturday, September 23, 2006

im malaysian..ahhahah

Congratulations Sean , you are 17% not Malaysian.

That means you're as Malaysian as...

Abdullah Badawi !

How Un-Malaysian Are You?

Is God deaf?

what if i were to say GOD IS DEAF. heard me...what if i say that God is deaf....whatever words you speak...whatever words you say ...God wont understand .What if i were to go further and say that God does not understand different languages.hmmm? now you must be thinking im out of my mind...

Well the truth some extend its true.why? because God only hears the heart...not the words out of our mouth. It does not mean that a person who talks the most out loud will be heard by God.IT is the person who means it from his heart...and through his heart...God sees it. YOu matter what we say is for a purpose of communication with your own species...humans....and humans speak different languages(complicated spiecies) languages were then meant for us to communicate among propose a thought to let others know what you want them to know....but with God...God sees your heart

It is the same with prophecies.....God impresses upon a persons heart...and through that...the man interprets it into words for others to hear.It is always the heart.

So knowing this, we realise that when we pray for someone or must be fromk the heart itself and not mere words. because words can be made up anytime without even meaning it.It is because God sees the heart that is even why mute people are able to communicate with God.

So then ...what exactly is the heart? is it the one that is beating now?the one pumping blood to your entire system?haha it would be funny because if Jesus is in my heart, then by doing a surgery, u can find Jesus...ahah so why do people pray and put their hands at the heart .? ahah beats me...symbolic i guess....

So the heart is actually the centre of your body....only slightly placed towards your left....not it is really about in the middle of ur body....ok....not only the placement of it, but also the function of it is the main source why you are living...

So when we ask Jesus to come into our heart...we are not literally asking him to come into our body...aahha but we are now having Jesus as the center of our life....our life revolves around HIm not vice versa. HE is now the main source why we are living .....

so to summarize the whole thing
1) God listens to your heart
2)Jesus is the center of our life (heart)


Wednesday, September 20, 2006


I was browsing through my archive and i found this old e-mail.ahhah stuff about women... i hope no one is offended but its really a fact that man and women are different.haha
Its an irony to say man and women are the eastern point of view...women are lower class people..but in the western view...women have more rights than man....haha equality?u decide....


Lifting up hands

If ever someone , say your friend comes up to you and ask you why do you lift your hands in worship? what will be your answer? I guess you can say this blog is a good source of knowledge on how to defend your faith...cuz that has always been my interest apart from being a missionary.

So, lifting up holy hands.any of you can quote me a scripture...give you 10 seconds to think of it...
10...9....8.....5....1...times up...=). So is it really stated in the bible? Honestly i never knew it actually existed until i was just reading my bible randomly and came across 1 timothy 2: 8

"I want men everywhere to lift up holy hands in prayer, without anger or disputing"

So really why do we do the things we do? does it make one more holy if he/she lifts up his/her hand?Why must we lift up our hands?To start off, i would say it is not a must that you must follow the "rules" of worship. to me, worship is a lifestyle...not a special occasion. gone are the days when people needed to sacrifice animals to atone their our life itself is a living sacrifice(romans 12:1).

So realising that it is not a must to lift up our hands.....then why do we do it? If you lift up your hands because other christians are doing it...or because the pastor says so....hmmm you know what will God say about it? IT says in isaiah 29 :13

"The Lord says:
"These people come near to me with their mouth
and honor me with their lips,
but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me
is made up only of rules taught by men. "

It is amazing how God sees us differently from what people see us.i would stop here cuz it will be elaborated in the next post.hmmm so why do we lift up our hands?

You know, it isnt a must that we do it. I dont know about you, but I lift up my hands as a symbol of total surrender to God. When a police sees a person lifts up his hands, the police will know that he surrendered and is willing to submit to whatever orders are given in the next few moments. The same goes with God.When we lift up our hands, it is just a symbolic refrence as total submission before God.

God bless

Sunday, September 17, 2006

A super testiomony

If we think we have challenges that is a big mountain to climb and unfairness in life, hopefully by reading this will motivate you to greater heights!

Beautiful in deed my friends, we too can all learn from this.....lovely testimony
Dear Friends,
An amazing story of faith in adversity. If Nick's story doesn't convince us about God's love & His power & what faith can do, then nothing else will.
My name is Nick Vujicic and I give God the Glory for how He has used my testimony to touch thousands of hearts around the world! I was born without limbs and doctors have no medical explanation for this birth "defect". As you can imagine, I was faced with many challenges and obstacles.
"Consider it pure joy, my Brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds."
....To count our hurt, pain and struggle as nothing but pure joy? As my parents were Christians, and my Dad even a Pastor of our church, they knew that verse very well. However, on the morning of the 4th of December 1982 in Melbourne (Australia), the last two words on the minds of my parents was "Praise God!". Their firstborn son had been born without limbs! There were no warnings or time to prepare themselves for it. The doctors we shocked and had no answers at all! There is still no medical reason why this had happened and Nick now has a Brother and Sister who were born just like any other baby.
The whole church mourned over my birth and my parents were absolutely devastated. Everyone asked, "if God is a God of Love, then why would God let something this bad happen to not just anyone, but dedicated Christians?" My Dad thought I wouldn't survive for very long, but tests proved that I was a healthy baby boy just with a few limbs missing.
Understandably, my parents had strong concern and evident fears of what kind of life I'd be able to lead. God provided them strength, wisdom and courage through those early years and soon after that I was old enough to go to school.
The law in Australia didn't allow me to be integrated into a main-stream school because of my physical disability. God did miracles and gave my Mom the strength to fight for the law to be changed. I was one of the first disabled students to be integrated into a main-stream school.
I liked going to school, and just try to live life like everyone else, but it was in my early years of school where I encountered uncomfortable times of feeling rejected, weird and bullied because of my physical difference. It was very hard for me to get used to, but with the support of my parents, I started to develop attitudes and values which helped me overcome these challenging times. I knew that I was different but on the inside I was just like everyone else. There were many times when I felt so low that I wouldn't go to school just so I didn't have to face all the negative attention. I was encouraged by my parents to ignore them and to try start making friends by just talking with some kids. Soon the students realized that I was just like them, and starting there God kept on blessing me with new friends.
There were times when I felt depressed and angry because I couldn't change the way I was, or blame anyone for that matter. I went to Sunday School and learnt that God loves us all and that He cares for you. I understood that love to a point as a child, but I didn't understand that if God loved me why did He make me like this? Is it because I did something wrong? I thought I must have because out of all the kids at school, I'm the only weird one. I felt like I was a burden to those around me and the sooner I go, the better it'd be for everyone. I wanted to end my pain and end my life at a young age, but I am thankful once again, for my parents and family who were always there to comfort me and give me strength.
Due to my emotional struggles I had experienced with bullying, self esteem and loneliness, God has implanted a passion of sharing my story and experiences to help others cope with whatever challenge they have in their life and let God turn it into a blessing. To encourage and inspire others to live to their fullest potential and not let anything get in the way of accomplishing their hopes and dreams.
One of the first lessons that I have learnt was not to take things for granted.
That spoke to my heart and convicted me to the point where that I know that there is no such thing as luck, chance or coincidence that these "bad" things happen in our life.
I had complete peace knowing that God won't let anything happen to us in our life unless He has a good purpose for it all.
I am now twenty- three years old and have completed a Bachelor of Commerce majoring in Financial Planning and Accounting. I am also a motivational speaker and love to go out and share my story and testimony wherever opportunities become available. I have developed talks to relate to and encourage students through topics that challenge today's teenagers. I am also a speaker in the corporate sector.

I have a passion for reaching out to youth and keep myself available for whatever God wants me to do, and wherever He leads, I follow.
I have many dreams and goals that I have set to achieve in my life. I want to become the best witness I can be of God's Love and Hope, to become an international inspirational speaker and be used as a vessel in both Christian and non-Christian venues. I want to become financially independent by the age of 25, through real estate investments, to modify a car for me to drive and to be interviewed and share my story on the "Oprah Winfrey Show"! Writing several best-selling books has been one of my dreams and I hope to finish writing my first by the end of the year. It will be called "No Arms, No Legs, No Worries!"
I believe that if you have the desire and passion to do something, and if it's God's will, you will achieve it in good time. As humans, we continually put limits on ourselves for no reason at all! What's worse is putting limits on God who can do all things. We put God in a "box". The awesome thing about the Power of God, is that if we want to do something for God, instead of focusing on our capability, concentrate on our availability for we know that it is God through us and we can't do anything without Him. Once we make ourselves available for God's work, guess whose capabilities we rely on? God's!

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Friday, September 15, 2006


ok ive really had a busy busy week...and couldnt apologies...
anyway i did pen down my thoughts into a lil notebook which i would post it out slowly...say everyday or two days ....had alot of thoughts running through my head lately...hahaha
so anyway here is my first of the many.... its about LOVE! woot! everyone go "aaawww" quick! thank you thank you.haha

So here is how i concluded it. GOd does NOT give love,He does NOT create love, He does not destroy love.why? because God is love itself! you know in physics (sounds nerdy) ...we study about newtons law...and it states that energy cannot be created nor destroyed.I find this principle the same here.Love cannot be created nor has and always been existing!Believe it or not that when we look around us, we see times changing, fashion changing...everything changes as years go by....agree? but you know whats so amazing?LOve has always existed no matter how many changes there can find love everywhere....and literally everywhere at any moment of time! even when people are suffering...during the war or something chaotic....there is still love that exist in those times!

You point is....God IS love! not just a matter of a nice and common phrase ...but if you realise what it actually not the same ol' phrase ya know.

It says...

John 13:34-35 (New International Version)

"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. 35By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

now realise this God is if we potray love to one another.....we are actually potraying God to others! christianity is all about living a life that reflects of God to others. and by showing love to one another...and because God is love....we are actually showing God to others...and just as Jesus said...then all men will know that we are his disciples. It is just through a lifestyle of love....

Sunday, September 10, 2006


Colours ...what if colours were not as they seem to be?what do i mean by this? lets say if i point at a red car...and i ask you what colour is would say red because all these while people have thought you that it is red.but what if that colour has been grey...and because you have been told it is red...therefore you call it red?

Confusing?hmmm my point is...what if everyone were to see colours differently?What if my black was actually your purple all along? but because we were told that it is black all these while...therefore we say it is black.What if what if colours were not what they actually were? will it make a difference if it was? no...but it is a good thought to think about......

Virtual world

Sometimes as i look around me, i wonder what if everything around me wasnt real.What if everything i see around me only exist virtually.It would be like me being in a virtual reality game where i am the only real thing around.What if...what if...
I may sound crazy now but what if it is so?That everything around me is not real ,existing only virtually just as a test for us to see if we can go on to the "next stage".what if even our parents, friends, relatives or even me were programmed to act the way the should act and that everything happens just because it is programmed to do so.So in that case, everything happens in the end is just to see how you would react to things around yourself.
So take for example a friend who just hurt you so badly.What if it happened because God wanted her to do that to you?What if God just wanted to see how you would react to it?Come to think of it, i guess Job did come to this stage where everything was merely existing primarily to test him.It is an interesting thought i had for years...what if everything was not real..or maybe it was all this while?

Thursday, September 07, 2006


haha guess what peeps, believe it or not i was in a marching team which won the most awards in my school e.g school sprts day and curiculum days.can u find me in the photo?haha its bottom row..5th from left..Well let me begin my life as a st.john memeber....

once upon a a land far far away,...okok cut the crap... hmm i was in standard 4 (equivalent to year 4)...i was in the tae kwan do unit...hahah after few weeks i gave up...then went to st.john. For those of you who dont know, we malaysians have to pick one uniform unit, one sports/games, and one club. It is a must.So every saturday we had to go to school for these activities....

by form 1 (year 7) ...we moved into another school where i selected my clubs and units
1. uniform unit = St.JOhn
2. Sports/games = chess
3. club = Literature drama and dance/ interact club

So yea...this was my secondary school life on saturdays...So lets single out st.john for the moment.I started in form 1 as a form 2(year 8) i took my first aid test which i had to pass to remain in the cadet.Form 3( year9) i begin to be actively involve.I remember walking around the city collecting donations.....being on duty for different sports...
form4 (year10) we were seniors and were training junors by then....i would talk about the training in a minute.... form 5(year11) we finally had our ranks....we took a test and out of the whole cadet we could only have one seargent, 4 corperals and 8 lance corperals. I got a lance corperal which was good enough...

So anyway the training we had every saturday was to run 7 laps around the field.... which is 7x400 =2800m ......yea we run 2.8 km every week...after that we did 100 situps and 100 push ups.......these figures are however the minimum..... most of the times it is more thatn that (including random punishments given)...... we trained hard to be the best in the school which we were and diddnt want to let the standard drop.

The awards we won were simply uncountable i dare say that we won 90% of the trophies.....marching was our main strgth i guess.... I remember being a lance corperal shouting orders till i had no more voice...hahah..

so anyway......anyone wanna march?hahah
This was taken after we were competing in the NGO competition.... guess which one is me...hahha
answer= 2nd from left

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

The power failure!

i was having slight stomach cramps during dinner.... dont raise your eyebrows at me!I am a guy i tell you...i assure you that i am a guy! hahaha the stomach cramps was mainly at my hips....i dunno it it was stomach ulsers or not but it lasted awhile.With the pain i had to stay back and not go prayer meeting....

but who in the world would expect a power failure?I was alone on the computer when poof! no electricity! 1st ly it is wierd because it is in Australia and it is very very rare for this to happen!2ndly i was at home alone...not that i was scared that evrything was pitch black now, but i was wondering what can i do now?I mean what can you do if there was no electricity?MOst activities or should i say nearly all the activities require light....not pitch black...

ok so the power failure happens at 8.30 pm ...i was wondering this is funny....isnt this the time prayer starts?I mean like in ACF we have worship first and at approximately at 8.30, we would start praying intensely.hmmm coincidence that the power failure happens at this time? I dont know about you but i dont believe in coincidences!After all the random things that happen this week.....all the more i should believe that God is trying to tell me something.

So i took out my guitar...and worshiped God in pitch black darkness....i managed to find my guitar using the torch light function on my phone.So i just began soaking in his presence, wroshipping like never before.How wonderful it was...just basking there....knowing that its just between you and God....after that i took out my bible, and using the torch light function on my phone, i read 5 chapters of the bible where God did speak to me saying in exodus 4 :11-12 "The LORD said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? 12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."

It may not mean anything to some of you but it does for me.I know God is preparing me for something.It is just too obvious to even doubt it.But i shall wait upon Him until the day is HIs His timing...

Now to sum up the past four days...
saturday = the random hug (night)
monday = the random call (night)
Tuesday = the random power failure(night)

Seriously.....i dont know what to expect tomorrow.... or even the next few days.....things are just going wierd these few days...seriously...

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Is God trying to tell me something?

ok last night was a bad night...i did my chem report until 2am and guess what, after i saved it, the comp hang...i had to restart and i tried opening the file and now it says the file is i had little amount of sleep for nothing! arrrggghhh

Anyway on the way back from school i was trying to dissapear a 50 cent coin.....and oops...i dropped it down the car seat.It was tough to bend down and find it so i took the 1 dollar coin and practice with it.....and 3 mins later i dropped that coin down the seat again....ok so after we reached home, i looked under the seat and searched for the 2 missing coins and guess what...until now i still cant find it!hahaha guessed I really did make it the expense of $1.50 ahahah..... man i could have bought some lollies with it....

So anyway just awhile ago someone called up and the conversation went like this..
-----sister comes in my room handing me the house phone------
Me :HEllo?
Aunty :hey this is aunty XXX
Me :oh hi aunty
Aunty :oh i just wanted to tell your parents this but your parents are not in...
Me :oh ok..
Aunty :(sounded muffled)I just wanted to say you have been brought up really well by your parents
Me :er...sorry can you say it again...
Aunty :oh I just wanted to say you have been brought up really well by your parents
Me :oh..hahah thank you....
Aunty :yea, because that day as i was walking towards the library a group of you came out and you were the only one who greeted me, i find that a very good example especially for us as asians......

--------cut short the elaboration----------------

Me :oh haha yea it is just a form of respect...hahah
Aunty :yea so i just wanted to tell your parents that.
Me :oh thanks aunty
Aunty :yea you have a good rest
Me :haha too...

hmmm and i begin to wonder why would someone just call just to say that?hahaha randoms?well i had too many randoms in one week and on both occasions it made me smile...on both occasions it was at night....about the same time(9.30 pm).........maybe God is trying to tell me something....hmmmm or i am just too dense to figure it out.....

Monday, September 04, 2006

magic tricks

I just got back from you can see i am still in my school uniform....
i did a few tricks and hope u guys enjoy...

I know the video is blur but watch as the king becomes an ace card....

This is clearer...haha

Watch the coin dissapear

Watch the coin reappear...

now to mix them up....

the old card dissapearing technique.....

now to show there is nothing on the other side of the hand.....hahahah

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Busy Busy

well what do you busy was last week omg. I can barely hold up my eyelids..i need sleep!ok besides the massive amount of practices, we had our dance audition yesterday...and guess what,..we came out top! haha cool eh? i guess maybe it had something to do with us being the only group?hahaha woot. anyway we passed the audition and will be headin for jumpstart in few weeks time.besides the fact of aileen freaking out before the dance.....everything went well....tho not the best but good enough...=)

ok then it was youth alive EXO day where 12000 youth all over melbourne meet at rod laver stadium just to worship God! amazin!it was an overwhelming sight to see people just lifting their hands up and in your heart you just feel the connection between them.gosh 12000 hands in the air.Reggie debbs was cool too...US no.1 why not?and then half way thru i felt i went out to get chips....then i met matt pastor and we went round to find the shop.Then all of a random girl comes up to me...smiles...and gives me a hug....haha how random is that? and then later this white boy come up and thinks i am a japanese or something.......maybe becuz of my spiked half-blonde hair....but said random stuff only matt would know...ahha too random to be typed here.....

Overall youth alive was great and all but i was down with fever the whole i diddnt quite enjoy it to the fullest.still thought Reggie should have spoken his preaching....and oh ya not forgetting the most important part....3000 people got saved that amazing is that?never seen so many saved at once before......amazing amazing.... so i got back at nearly 1am and had to wake up at 7.45 cuz i need to be in church early cuz we were dancing for fathers day.

it was a good performance i guess with everyone complimenting it in the end.....well it was a great day catching up with people and all.... and for the girl who hugged me...i'll remember her for a long long time...hahah whoever she

Thursday, August 31, 2006

VCE subjects next year

Fiddling with my calculator when a voice called out "Sean!".Oh great its my turn now.I wonder what i got for the last test.WHo cares anyway I am dropping it next year.I started recalling my preperation for the bio test.I did nothing to prepare for it.All i did was go to scholl and sit for my test.I began my walk up to the front where the teacher was busy recording the marks into her record book."yes miss?" I said. Then she whispers " you got 82% for your first test and 86 % for your outcome." "oh" i replied with my eyebrows up.In my mind i thought is bio that easy? or did the teacher make a mistake marking it?surely it is a mistake.I did not study for it. Then she ask "so, youre doing bio next year?" "no? why?" "oh youre better at maths?""i see.." .

In my mind i was just thinking why i chose the subjects i chose. I chose it because i don like studying.and i chose math becuz i dun need to study them...hmmm its good and bad depending how u look at it.

ESL(english as second language),
math specialist(higher level of math),
math methods(like addmath in msia)
Physics (also got to do with counting)
chem ( the only subject i needed studying)

We call it the asian 5 subjects.I must admit it is asian.BUt why is it asian?It is becuz asian parents want their children to be engineers,businessman,doctors or lawyers.Typical asian parents who just want prestige and fame to be brought into their family.Asian families is all about bringing honour to your sur name.

so what do i want to do in the future?i dont know.I'll leave it to God to determine my result. I dont want to walk in my own will.Not my will but YOURS be done.

Monday, August 28, 2006

Rectifying last sunday's

To start off, last sunday evening , the sermon wasnt right at all. Or should i even call it a sermon?besides the scripture romans 12:2 not relating to the topic,
HEre are my points.

No.1 We are not gods

Its funny that christianity is against any other gods and here is someone trying to promote us as gods.The only God there is is the only one who lives forever more.the defination of god is simply one who is worshiped.And no! we are not to be worshiped at.Even Paul rebuked when people tried to worship himWe are not to be rulers but instead servants.And through this servanthood we become leaders.It is until we humble ourselves only will God use us to impact others.One example is the life of Jesus.He did not come to this earth to rule but to serve and through his servanthood, he led the wrold.

No.2 We are not "as good as people get to experince God"

You know if i am as good as people get to experince God, i dont think anyone wanna be a christian anymore.ahha WE ALL fall short of the glory of God there is no way I am even close to what God is.If we become christians because our friends are christians, when persecution comes, chances is that you will give up your faith easily.But if you experience God, the REAL experience, the REAL thing, no way would you let go of such faith even if a gun is pointed at you.Knowing the real God and experiencing it is just a feeling no words can describe.THere are even people who accepted christ without even being witnessed by people.Jesus appeared to some of them ,mind you that they are people who are in remote areas and never heard the name JEsus before.But Jesus appeared in front of them and they became christians! My point is we are not as good as people get to experince God because Jesus can intervene even without our help.We are juz priveledged to be able to be used by HIm.It is a priveledge!

No.3 Prayer meeting is important

People say that praying one minute a day is good enough and when u add all the numbers will look good statistically.BUt hey prayer is not about making up the numbers, it is about your own spiritual dont add someone elses prayer time to yours!It doesnt work! You cant just say to your friend "hey dude u pray 2 mins today...i pray 3 mins...then we make 5 mins"...gosh....prayer shouldnt even be added up because it is a PERSONAL encounter with God.
That is why prayer meeting is so so so important.The power of corperate prayer!When two or three are gathered in HIs just wont believe what can happen....This year alone so many miracles happen just simply by sacrificing a wednesday for God. Little niki is one example how God spared her life.

No.4 Not a task list but a discipline

Whatever we do in our christian walk, our devotions, prayer life, worship is never a task list that we tick. It is simply a service to God out of love. Doing all this does not make u a better christian but your attitude towards this makes the whole difference. It just simply boils down to how much we really want to know God.Because if we love god with all our strength heart mind and soul....all of these will just fall into place!We no more need to force ourselves to do these but you would WANT to do it. That is why that was the most important commandment Jesus said.Love God with all your heart.

NOw some people say that God loves you no matter what you do.Yes it is true but the fact still remains that GOd loves you but not your sins.You cant just go around saying oh....God will understand why i did that....He will forgive...His love is unconditional no matter what....You are just missing the point!Ok let me provide an analogy..

A father loves his son.His son steals his friend's pencil box.The father finds out and punishes him.But the father's love for his son was no less before the incident.HIs father still love him the same.The same goes with our heavenly father.Sometimes we sin and he punishes us.Yes he still loves us and because he does love us...we get punished so that we will be a better person.

I believe that you have more or less got the point.So we cant say that "oh if i dont pray and go to church..maybe skip this and that...God will still love me....anyway he wont love me more if i did those things becuz he loves me unconditionally".Well believe it or not that those people who are in hell were loved by God too....but because they did not love God back so there was only a one way relationship.And we should all know that one way relationship isnt a relationship at all! And without a relationship...hey who is God to you?

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Laying down everything

Well how can i start this post...hmmm trying to gether my thoughts this very moment as i am typing this..Lets start with a dream being fullfilled today.

For those of who who are not aware, we are leaving in the end times where God said in acts 2:17

"In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams."

You people have no idea how true this verse is today,how true it is that this verse is coming alive right this very moment.On the 11th of July i woke up with a vision.It was "22:11". I have no idea what it meant and thought it was silly to have it stuck in my head for so long.Nevertheless i wrote it down in my diary because I believe vision and dreams are never a coincidence. So what i did was i jotted it down in my entry and this is what i said

"11/7/06 (dream/vision) 22:11 (dunno what it means...22 november maybe?)"
So then one month has passed and last friday 25th august God literally showed me visions and this time with emotions.It was an experience i never felt before and then it prompted me to search the bible for 22:11 because God told me it is a verse in the bible.(Note that i had no idea it was a verse, all along i thought it was a date or something random.)

So i searched the bible and found 1 chronicles 22:11 which says "Now, my son, the LORD be with you, and may you have success and build the house of the LORD your God, as he said you would". And i was like whoah..... It all now made sense...

My dad had been going thru a hard time in church and when this verse was revealed to me out of nowhere,it was simply a confirmation for my dad's work here.I shared this with him which did encourage him alot.God was litterally telling him that He is with him and he will have sucess and build the house of GOd juz as he said he would. the timing and everything was juz too perfect for coincidence.

The vision was given 1 month earlier before the problem arose.God certainly is taking the steering wheel of my life now.Right now i am in gear 4 and i am on a roll with God.My faith just shot up the moment i laid everything down before pride,guilt,hurts, even my joy and happiness ....i would trade everything just to be in God's will.Even if it means sacrificing my peace, joy or even church activities and responsibilities.

Sometimes people equate laying down everything is about laying down your burdens and all.BUt i am here to tell you what everything means, unless your english teacher has done that job for me, but for those who are not sure, everything means all! Are you willing to sacrfice even your knowledge of God?Are you willing to learn something new?take a new ride. Have you got enough of living the "christian-life" everybody is living with?I dont know about you, but i want more!

Oh, how i pray for the day that you will capture this same passion and desire.Your life wont be the same again as you prophesy and capture visions and dream dreams, oh how i pray for that day to come.It is great to hear this but i want you to experience it.. I juz ask of you juz to lay down everything before God, come to Him from scratch.Dont come to him with all your "christian values" or your "knowledge of God" or even your "ministries"....i urge you to come to God from transparent as you are...and lay everything down.Then will i assure you that God will empower you and teach you things you never realised. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.

When you look down at you path and walk, you are depending on yourself and making sure you make the right steps.If you are following someone from behind, you are following his steps.But God says look UP to him and walk.Then suddenly you wont know what steps you are taking and you are totally dependant on God's guidance.Because if you walk with ur heads looking up, you wont know what you might step on/into.That is when your total dependancy is on God.So look up towards God this day and trust HIM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006


I am now at the age where prophecies are coming to past.Prophecies spoken of are coming to reality even right at this very moment.I can be here naming all the prophecies but all i can say is it took me 18 years to come out with 2 prophecies which in both cases came to past within a matter of two weeks. I wonder when the next prophecy will come......

I begin to look at the bible and Paul said in corinthians that between speaking in tongues and prophecy...choose prophecy.It is in 1 corinthians 14 by the way.I always treasure prophecies alot because it just shows how personal God is and how real He is.
BUt on the other hand there is a group of people who prophesies, not from God but from his own conscience. This however is a blasphemy.Because prophecies are so precious and we should not be telling someone what God says but in actual fact is just what we felt.

How to distinguish a real prophecy from a fake one? Prophecies are specific.They are not general.And it also shouldnt be used in vain.Some people struggle to distinguish their own feelings/thoughts with God's instruction/communication.Sometimes God speaks and we think it is us speaking to ourselves.Sometimes it is the other way round.I used to struggle with this until i realise how easy it was to hear God's how do we distinguish it?

ok picture this, u call your friend up and your friend sounds totally different on the phone.The next time u call him/her u still had to say "may i speak to ____" becuz ur not sure who is on the other side.But after a year of speaking to him/her everyday, the next time u dial that number, u will recognise the voice to be his or hers right away. my point?well during the first few steps with God, you may not distinguish his voice.BUt through constant communication, slowly yet surely you would know who God would recognise it. And when the trumpet sounds on the day of ressurection,be sure u recognise His voice if not u will not be awaken..

So how else can we communicate with God other than prayer?No other way!It is through prayer you recognise God's voice.BUt if you say you have been a 10 yr christian and still dont know God's voice, you know what?one question i would ask is how far is your prayer life?what level have you brought it to?One thing is for sure, I enjoy talking to God.I receive revelations after revelations, sometimes dreams and sometimes visions.If only all of us live a prayerful life,if only....

Just the other day, God showed me this revelation.I wouldnt elaborate it becuz it simply speaks for itself..

Popularity is defined by the numbers of Sunday service
Faith is defined by the numbers of the prayer meeting.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Talented but useless

Life.The state in which we are in while we are reading this.Like it or not, life is something we all possess.What we do with it is what counts. It is like the brain.We wont be rewarded for having it, but for USING it.

So today i was in history class when the teacher went round asking if they are taking up history next year...some said yes and some said no..the teacher just went..."oh".....then when she came to my turn...i said "no".she stood for a moment and stared at me as if i was a ghost or something.she took one long gasp and everyone in class turned to me. lnot turning my head, my eye balls started looking left and right, having an awkward feeling. she asked with a bewildered face "whyy?". I know it must hv been hard for her as i hv been getting A and A+..not that i wanted was just God's blessing.So i replied "erm...cuz im doin physics,chemistry,specialist,methods and...." "a language!",she said."erm yea..." i said with an apologetic look.Then she gave the oh-wells-what-can-i-do look and said in a whisper "smart boy" before moving to the next person.

Then came lunch time when we played soccer...and i scored another bicycle kick goal. For those people who dont know what a bicycle kick is, here is your 1st football lesson, watch this video to find out what a bicycle kick is.

I love doing this cuz its acrobatic and not many people can do it...ahhaah and its nice to watch too.

Suddenly i recalled how i got myself into acrobatics.hahah i was in the school gymnastic team at one point.that was during primary school. I remembered doing lots of cartwheels,head stands and flipping.haha Then i remembered how my dad once told me "how can u be a gymnast and footballer at the same time?" I guess that was part of the reason why i had to choose football instead of gymnastics.Well i never did regret that decision.haha but hey, i have learned how to intergrate soccer and acrobatics...

Sometimes i do wonder why i am blessed with so many talents yet i am not gratefull as i should be.What can i do with all these talents?What can i do? Sometimes i feel so usefull yet useless.It is one of those ironies that i have lived with.I always wanted to channel my talents to change the world.But little did i know that these talents are just nothing without God.It is God that is the one my hope should depend wonder all this while i was not contented.No wonder i never felt usefull.It was becuz i placed my hope on talents i have and not on the one who blessed me with it.

God, I am sorry for being blinded all this while, help me.I wish and hope for you to use me to change the world.But before that use me to change my country.BUt before you change my country, first change my city.Before you change my city, first change my church.Before you change my church,first change my family,before you change my family, change me oh God, change my heart...Then only will I change my family,then my church, then my city,then my country and then the world.....