i see

I see a tree with roots..rooted deep into the ground.but the soil is not nourished.the land is dead. the leaves that sprouted green soon became brown and in time, it withered to the ground.

This has to happen.I see where its going and I see wats coming.Its going to be sad but I see a glimmer of light at the end.I see hope. I know whats about to happen and I see how its going to begin.It doesnt end here. Now, now its the start.Finally the truth is out, but will we be brave enough to step up to it? or is our age going to limit us? how do we fight against people who can shut you down with a blink. What do we do?God lead us.

Numbers 14 :10-23

But the whole assembly talked about stoning them. Then the glory of the LORD appeared at the Tent of Meeting to all the Israelites. 11 The LORD said to Moses, "How long will these people treat me with contempt? How long will they refuse to believe in me, in spite of all the miraculous signs I have performed among them? 12 I will strike them down with a plague and destroy them, but I will make you into a nation greater and stronger than they."
13 Moses said to the LORD, "Then the Egyptians will hear about it! By your power you brought these people up from among them. 14 And they will tell the inhabitants of this land about it. They have already heard that you, O LORD, are with these people and that you, O LORD, have been seen face to face, that your cloud stays over them, and that you go before them in a pillar of cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night. 15 If you put these people to death all at one time, the nations who have heard this report about you will say, 16 'The LORD was not able to bring these people into the land he promised them on oath; so he slaughtered them in the desert.'
17 "Now may the Lord's strength be displayed, just as you have declared: 18 'The LORD is slow to anger, abounding in love and forgiving sin and rebellion. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation.' 19 In accordance with your great love, forgive the sin of these people, just as you have pardoned them from the time they left Egypt until now."
20 The LORD replied, "I have forgiven them, as you asked. 21 Nevertheless, as surely as I live and as surely as the glory of the LORD fills the whole earth, 22 not one of the men who saw my glory and the miraculous signs I performed in Egypt and in the desert but who disobeyed me and tested me ten times- 23 not one of them will ever see the land I promised on oath to their forefathers. No one who has treated me with contempt will ever see it.

Because of their murmuring,even Moses could not witness the promise that God had promised to them being fulfilled.It was the next generation that God was pleased with.It was the next generation that promises were fulfilled. but first something has to happen.death.

Is there another way around it? Let me out, let me loose.I need not contain all this anymore.
guide me.

God, is it time yet? I am ready now.Let me out of this shell, I wanna be who you called me to be. Tell me its time, give me the opportunity, dont let me miss it. I need you.